Calm Night

Now, i felt much more better after i received one call from the person i've always waited for. i'd waited for either his reply or call from this "person A". Feeling so desperate waiting until i lose my mood. By then, i told myself that if by today he didn't reply me thats it. Then when i was half excersing.. doing my yoga, my phone rang..i thought my eldest sister called me since she called me before this call..so i walked slowly towards the computer table and took my phone. Before pressing the answer button..i was surprised.. it's him..i was so proud, honestly. My mood by then changed..totally..and now, i realised that what has been bothering me so long is this. Finally found the answer. I hope i can get more calls and text messages from this "person A" Even a call is enough to fulfil my day! Age difference dosen't matter at all to me.. not younger than me then its fine. I don't really know what on/in him made me fall for him. Maybe his smile..i find that his smile is sweet. Every time, morning..saw his smile wake me up..fully charged. That's what my friends always said that every morning when they saw me high and happy. Is that true? haha..no idea though! Thinking back from now, i remembered i first met him when i'm walking to ktm to catch the train to my college. There, i spotted this guy. He greeted me with a smile. That smile electricuted me! I don't know why.. From then, i started to give him all the baked products to this "person A" not to trade anything back. It's just to make me happy and can get close to him, talk to him, be friend with him but not to get free drinks or food from him and his dad. Some friends told me that he gave me free drinks is because i gave him my baked products. Give baked products to trade and exchange for free stuffs.. but that's not what i want..i mean it seriously. I'm not greedy for free things..that's why i try to avoid him when he tries to give me a free drink or food..i want to proof to my friends and sisters that i'm not that kind of person. Today, i admitted that something is wrong with me, i don't know why i stopped and listened to him. He asked me to stop so that he can give me a drink..and i did..gosh, what is happening here? Maybe it's because i missed him..Like tomorrow,Friday, class cancelled..saturday no class, sunday no class..then monday, holiday. See, cannot see him again...i'm really so sad about it. Sometimes, i feel like calling him out for tea or hang around somewhere..but i didn't cause i don't think it's necessary..like i'm not a man..that's not my job!! that's what my friends always told me that..esp. siew leng..i know siew leng will not agree me to do that for sure..to prevent me form getting hurt since she understood me more than the others did..so thinking that, i didn't do it. Just leave it..*sigh*