Cool Evening

Thinking back when i was in the ktm, the thoughts made me very scared. It made me think that i'm going to have split personalities..one cruel and one is kind. In the ktm just now, i saw a kid. This kid is kinna naughty i doubt. He kept playing around walking here and there kicking his shoes around. From that moment, due to my mood that specific time, i suddenly felt somthing telling me this and made me thought of it "how i hope this kid just fall and break his neck" and i smile a bit..when i blink my eyes i was shocked with the thoughts i had..then later something told me again.."what's the use of being a good and kind person? you won't be able to get what you want. you get more depressed but if u're wicked, cruel and mean instead, u'll infact be more happy." I really hope i can totally change myself from a kind one to a cruel one. These thoughts aren't nonsense..they are facts!! what they say i right..The points are in it..don't you think so??So, i'm and trying and will change myself..but there's gonna be a limit to be cruel.. Life is bored but what to do? Friends are not all sincere, what to do? Studies are not what you want, what to do? Dreams couldnt really come true, what to do, Cannot get what you want, what to do?? I just have to bear with it..i'm totally so confused and botrhered..what's it that's bothering me?What's dat?