Rainy Day

Today, its cooling..it's like my mood today, just fair, just good. Today, last day of my boredom too..going back to class tomorrow. No need to stay at home again. Anyway, what siew leng has said to me yesterday is right..don't always stuck myself at home..i need some fresh air and so i have to go out and have fun..like this i won't feel so depressed again. But i don't think i need a treatment leng..i don't need pschiatrist though..i can handle my conditions myself, don't worry. CHEERS!! Maybe suffering from depression dosen't mean 100% suffering, so really no need to worry my dear..i knew that you worried me a lot..but i promise you, i won't do anything stupid to myself..i swear..although i told you that i don't enjoy living dosen't mean i will kill myself, rite? Didn't i told you that i hope our friendship can last more than 30 years? i meant that..really..Today, i felt much more better..i know what it's currently bothering me, i know how to solutionize it. I've grown up..i know what should and shouldn't be done. Ms. Ong once said that to me " Its worthless to think worthless things". Therefore, i'll leave it be how it'll be. Life is like that..There's time when you're unhappy, there's time when u're happy, there's also times when you're full of complications..just have to solve it by ourselves one by one. Failure dosen't meant u're a failure..u just have to keep on trying..like what my ex- form tutor had told me.."never try never knows"..but if u keep on insisting that you're a failure then yes you are because you didn't even put ur own guts there and try. Don't give yourself excuses..cause in this world excuses are the main reasons that make us fail..make us a failure..Besides, trying, believe is also important to us..Believe what we're doing to aim for successes. If u don't believe yourself in doing one's work, do you think your work can be done smoothly? But before believing ourselves, make sure we have a clear mind..without it, the work you're trying to do will be all a mess and complications..which can lead you to a serious condition. Don't work too hard you'll hurt yourself. Working hard is good but not too overboarded...meaning start work at the right time you should and rest when your work time is up..don't try to think that you work more, you salary will get a rise..there's no such thing..because you fall for him so you try to work more hard and try to get all the business for him and the company?? That's not the way. What's the use of helping him when he don't even really cares?? He'll instead thank you, treat you for a meal, for helping him increasing the company's business. It's not worth it..but try to think this way..he'll one day got furious when you fail to succeed a project..what will he do to you although he's your friend?? You helped him alot..does he know it? You're just wasting your time..giving out your anger when you reached home to express your feelings on your sisters? Sisters are also human..it's not where you can express your anger to anytime you want..you're the one who made yourself too busy til you had no time to rest and sleep even eat..your occupation, yes i understand..but this is not the way to work..there's a limit..you're a robot ..Buying crystals to change your luck all the time do you think it'll really works? If it's like that all the people outside can just buy crystals to get rich no need to work hard then..Luck lies on our hand..not on crystals..it's just wasting money..why not just save the money for some more necessary things?? Too many crystals on you is not that good..do you know that..? Did you find that after you put on those crystals you feel a huge heat behing you? making you so fierce and angry person??..making people dislikes you?? I know finance is important but finding and making money is not like that..do u get me clear?? ..i hope you guys know what i'm trying to say here....enjoy life more if you can..once your life is almost ending then you'll understand..there's no more regrets after it's all over..don't regret if you don't believe this..my life is like that..i don't know when i'll end one day..so i'll try my best to enjoy one every single day..it's stupid and silly to think that..maybe it's because my life is boring so i thought of this..but anyway, trust me..