Rainy Calm Day

What's the matter with me these days for being so emotional and so moody?? What's going wrong with me? Nothing big deal has actually happened..why??..so bothered about something..how can i get rid off this? how?? Just like today..moring i was fine..happy in a great mood but when i arrived to MIB, this feeling started to come again..its just like being possessed or something. Just a second, i just seemed to changed into another person.. moody, bothered, emotional..Don't tell me i really have two identity even i myself don't know..like i used to said to one of my friends, Jordine Maxime..that i have a twin sister named Mable and Elbam. Mable is always the emotional one and not that high but for Elbam, a bit super duper hyper active..kept on laughing for no reason, likes to play around..mood is always stable..Honestly, that was just a story made by me last year..if i have this identity in me, i think i'm really in a trouble. I must start to look and search for a pschiatrist to do some medical check- ups in order i can cure myself up and become the normal and happy, nothing to worry Mable Kum like i was last time. When did i really start to change the way i am now? When?? I used to be brave, and strong person..but what am i now? I'm becoming to understand myself lesser and lesser..don't really know who i am soon if this condition continnues..i'm really afraid something in me is going really wrong. My feelings these days too has distracted my health as well. Making me headache, bodyache, paranoid, day dreaming, losing appetite but gaining weight!! Gosh..can everything go back to normal before i really can't stand it and make myself collapse one day??? Negative thoughts are all entering through my mind and soul..i couldn't take it any longer anymore..im so bothered with a lot of things..a lot!!!!!!..am soon losing my way to live..