I could still remember how i took Zai Zai as my pet from the beginning. That day was a sunday when winnie and i joined my aunt for rock climbing at somewhere near to the Batu Cave. After the climbing when i was on the way to the parking lot, winnie and i spotted these litter of puppies inside a cave. Its mother was signed nowhere. So, without wasting my time, i simply grabbed one into the car and i named it lucky at first which is later renamed to Zai Zai. I was proud that at that particular time the puppy i simply grabbed is him. He was so adorable.. just like a bear when he's little. Also, he's quite a noisy puppy. Cries every mid night when he's hungry which sometimes annoyed me. Thinking back, it was fun caring him. Cause he was so little with his eyes still closed! The way he sucked the milk from the bottle was so cute that it still made me smile at it. Four white tiny legs with his cute tail and the pair of ears he had..never knew that he's a German Shephard mix till most of my eldest sister's friend said so. Was really proud of it.cause he's not those " stray dogs". Zai Zai has a habit of crawling on the floor either when he did something wrong or he wants you to play and praise him. From young without any proper trainings from me, he could understand what we are actually feeling especially me. As his owner, i felt so sorry for him because i took him before he could hardly even open his eyes and separated him with his other siblings and mother. Anyway, whenever i feel a bitunhappy and depressed about something, he seemed to know because at that every moment, he'll make those silly actions. Those actions were really very cute which made you smile. By the time you smiled, he;ll then come to your knees and licked you. It's just like when you're unhappy, someone is there to comfort you till you feel okay. The other thing about him is that, he's naughty. Still remembered he went out and came back late made me worried like hell. Went outside and looked for him around but hasn't see any of his figure. At that second, i couldn't hold my tears because i worried someone took him away from me and i'll never had the chance to see him again. So, i went into the living room, sat there for hours, suddenly i heard those little bell sound and i looked out at the door. There, Zai Zai stood and looked at me and later he jumped onto my lap and licked me non-stop and laid down on my lap on the sofa. I was so touched by what he did so i didn't scold him. In fact, i figured that he knew he did something which made me worried. Seeing my eyes red, he licked me to tell me that he's back, don't cry, he'll always be there for me when i need him. To me, he's like my son. A son that i had that can undertstand human convo and actions. Although he's sometimes naughty, he knew how to control his behaviours. Playing hide and seek with us by hiding one of our flip flops especially michelle's pink flip flops. Crossing road is also his fav. simply crossed busy roads as he like which really sometimes worried me a lot. Thought he has a sense like we human being have, i believed him in doing anything he did, i didnt scold him. Took a lot of pictures of him so that i can always review back his past looks turns out to be memories now..It's all my fault. If i hadn't always argue with my grandaunt/uncle over him, my parents wont have forced me to give Zai Zai away to anybody. Since i had mentioned that he has the sense of what we human have, he can sensed that i'm going to give up caring him. Looking at his eyes, watery sometime, can't made me stop hugging him on my arms. Because he knew, we soon gonna give him to someone else, some said he rather leave us instead of being took care under someothers' care. To prevent me from being bothered, he rather die. It hurts me really hurts although i didn't showed it out. Cry, won't make him alive again..without him around, really missed him a lot. No wonder those days before he left me, he's so playful. And being his owner can't even understand and read his feeling, instead he does. Took back his body, isn't enough for me to feel any better. Everynite, seeing the place he's buried reminds me about how he used to play with me, how he used to crawl and run around. Can't see none anymore now..He didn't give me a chance to play with him..If one day his spirit appears to me, i really wish to see him a lot. Since his lifespan's this short, i can't do anything but to wish he can leave in peace. What i can say now to him is:
How can you did this to the ones who loved you. How can you leave us especially me.
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