It has to give it an end after all these. Restarting and refreshing myself is what i should and can do. Closing my doorways as soon as its too late to prevent myself from regreting on what i've done. A wonderful times turned out to be an awful end. My decisions made by myself is always not right. No time of regreting as it wont help. Images inside my head flipping over and over's going to kill me. Smoking only can stop me from thinking things that i dont want to think of..but i know its harming me..am trying to avoid from it though. *Sigh its just hard to do it..Giving up on both sides might be a bit hurt but then..what i can say is be back to friends and hope you all the best. Cannot be lovers can be friends. But just need so time thats all. Seems like im ready to accept sean as a friend but for the other...soon i doubt..just have to give me some time. Anyway, just now saw sean's display pic. i doubt he found another one..so although honestly, i felt a bit hurt but then what i can do is congrats..life is like that..how is hope human like me dont have love inside..how good is it..Anyway, tomorrow im going to die as i dont get what all the costing notes explaining..so die for the test tomorrow..*geez*