Rainy Day

yesterday, jess spotted several of my friends cheated and caught them..she caught wei lim..i was standing next to her, and i was thinking why i can see jessi cheating with a piece of paper under her exam paper..why cant jess see it? so damn unfair..i was trying to tell jess about it..but why i didnt? then today ah yao told me that yesterday jess told him to ask me to tell her who else cheated..send her the name..the first thing in my mind was jessi..i really wanna push her out because i really hated her..but i just can't..because we once are closed friends..and don't because of what had happenend between the both of us i hate her and push her out..thats not a right way to do..i can't be so evil..Hatred won't bring me to anywhere..same goes to sharon and louis..yes i once admired him..but once i knew he is not interested in me..i'm really hurt, but after all..everything was back to normal..after i knew sharon and win went along, i felt a bit heartache..but thats not because i'm stil into him..im not...its just a feeling..i dont know why as well...but what can i do..i can only say congrats to them..i wont hate them...what has over is over..no turning back..goes to how jessi, jonathan and i were now...i ahould be mature enough to think this way..and jonathan..he's really a nice guy..just that he has a really bad attitute...he's just so in love with jessi only he said those frank words to me..so i should learn to forgive and forget..but however, these will never change my mind..i'm still willing to give up my friendship after i'm settled with everything in K.L..i'm planning to leave to elsewhere and find new friends again..bt the first place i would like to go is ADELAIDE!!! siew lenf wait for me..before that, i can't wait for siew leng to come over here and visit me..i'm still waiting for her to get confirm..haha..i really love her so much..more as a sister!!!!!