Drawing up

Time flies fast thus life is short. After knewing one friend of mine had left to a far away land, my heart punctured badly. Was once a friend is always a friend. There's no such thing as goodbye to one another except for leaving and gone for good but still, we would still be friends. Although gone to a far away land, you will always be in my mind and still be a part of us around, you will still be remembered among us. (p/s: Baljeet, we hoped you could rest in peace, may god lead you to the light where you could really rest in peace.Although god took you early away from the earth, your moments with us before will never be erased. Although you never will return, i wished you could guide your parents and your family from where you are now.May you protect them and bless them. i would love to thank jesus for allowing us to meet and be friends back then. a nice and warming friend you were...once again, rest in peace.)

One of my friend told me today that life is full of hope but to me, life is full of complications and full of risks as the world now is no longer it was before. Everything seemed to be in danger, our every single day for a normal rank human would always be feared for lacking cash in their wallet, banks because of the financial problems in this society. Government tends to think of themselves more, increasing everything but never tends to think of their people who are suffering. We worked so hard but at the end, not much income in return. It's still not enough to make a living. The standard of living in here really is high. No wonder everywhere is in danger. Murders, Robberies, Poverties are all happening around. What's most feared were the victims. Life is precious thus  easily to be taken away just like that so is accidents on roads like baljeet did in canada. Eveysingle little moments going on in our life is always dangerous. You never know when it's your turn.

Rain poured almost everyday this month. As i feel the droplets hitting on my palm made me smile. Hearing the rain pour, made my mind clear, Feeling the wind, refreshed me.Heard the thunder, alerted me. After the rain stopped, made me felt peace when seeing the how clear the view infront me was than before. After all, i re call him again. feeling full of regrets in my choice i made. i hated myself more and more. I should have grabbed him tight and never had let him go. I should have run back to him, i should have apologize to him, i shouldnt have give up so easily. I shouldn't run away and gave him to somebody else.. I couldn't let go, i couldn't resist. Till now, i can honestly say, i'm not fully letting fo it yet although i knew he and i could never be how we used to be anymore but i'll try my best to let this go one day and accept someone else who loves me. And for this time, i'll never give up easily anymmore. Because giving up will made me regret, giving up will make me lose myself. I'm drawing up each day of mine to be a brand new day, a brand new me and a brand new start..as life is short, and i worried i have no enough time to spend. No one knows what will happen tomorrow and the day after tomorrow to me..